I happen to be in contact with people who lead to be stuck with themselves or they cant love or appreciate themselves, I have this kind of friends alot and they're quite young well some are older than me but there's few of them. In today youth, teenagers have an honour to take Depression and anxiety as their lifestyle, they cannot know what they are, when they feels bad just once they cries that they has a depression, I know alot of them who are confessing it too easily that they has a depression, it cant be like that, I can see it thorugh with my eyes.

 Not everyone actually knows what is depression, some are actually saying that it dosent even exist, cause its just people's fiction, people are different we know that. There's alot of sympthons in depression, it controls: thoughts, feelings, attitude and the psychical reaction of the body. one-time sympthon dosent designate the depression.

 Ofcourse the depression will come out of nowhere, it just comes and it takes over your body and fills it with negative energy and that's how you've gotten of that disease's victim. Long-time stress and trauma can be the reason for the depression, losing someone who is loved by you, painful past. All that negative thinking will help to build that depression in your head, changes will get built in your brain, if you really are stuck in your negativity, it will get stuck in your head and you'll be in the dark spot. 

 Teenagers are always against to something and negative against to the disease called Depression, they just sits and cries, that it is like that and they'll never get rid of this thriller. But to talk about the truth that depression is healable when you are not lazy enough to get up and search for help to go to the doctor or get a psychologist or psychiatrist, every kind of calming medicines, what your psychiatrist might write up to you, would relieve the chemistry in your brain. this disease can be HEALED! 

 For teenagers it will be easy to be depression's victim, the reasons are: escaping from home, loneliness, violence, schoolbullying, computer and internetadditcion, low selfconficence, self-esteem. eating disorders and so on.

 Noone isint born into this world to be perfect because noone isint actually, cause everyone are beautiful in their own way and the word called "ugly" dosent exists in this world, everyone has their natural beauty, it has to be appreciated, you have to learn how to love yourself just he way you are, never try to stand out for a person who is beautiful than you, you cant never live in someone's else body. besides you cant change yourself for someone who wants you to be better, never take this progress up with you cause its wrong, you've found a wrong person, you just have to let that person go cause you dont deserve that person!

 Be honest to yourself and learn how to appreciate yourself, you're living this life through only once you cannot waste your life for lots of negativity, you have to take a big progress with yourself to get back as yourself, learn how to love yourself and do what you love the most it helps you to find your personality, develope your sight of view.

 You're not alone, take up a person who you can trust and and tell her/him your mouth clear, besides you'll get to feel better cause shared worries and half worries and your mouth will be cleaned with a soap. Make sure that person can give you the best advice. If you never ask an advice from someone then you'll just be helpless and you need to struggle of it by yourself, but I warn you its really difficult to help yourself alone.

 Yes, terrible things will happen, but some terrible things will save you. And just stay yourself you'll never knów who you'll inspire by just being yourself. Life is too short to worry about stupid things, just be happy, just have fun, fall in love and regret nothing and never let people to take you down. It's all too hard I know but I know you can do this, you are loved, you are strong, you are valid. And you are created on this earth just to make people happy.

Thank you, come again,

Kachee Cha

It have happened alot in these days, in this week I've been studying for math exam, I used to study it when I got mad, cause I was getting mad easily this week, I talked about my old best friend with who I got into a fight recently and we're not getting in contact together, It seems like I'm mourning my friend cause she is not the person I thought she was so I let her go and I got a trauma of it, and I mourned her like she have passed away from me. From that time I decided to not get into contact with people and now I'm just sitting here and watching Japnanese dramas all day without anyone writing me.

 As long I watched theJapanese dramas the less I felt depressed and lonely, Japanese dramas kept me in company and I really am enjoying the time, I've been watching the series all day long yesterday and today right at ten o'clock in the morning I started with Japanese drama maraton again, it feels good! I do worry sometimes that noone writes to me just for a while and It seems to me like I don't exist but its okay, J-dramas helps me out from the pain.

 I've been watching dramas with Haruma Miura, he is my favorite japanese actor from now, haha. I've seen him from Attack on Titan too, first movie I saw on my birthday with my friends and the second movie I saw with my friend at the cinema. I've finished a J-drama "Last Cinderella" in 2 days and it was so funny and adorable, it was full of cuteness overload, I suggest you to watch it! And now I'm watching "The Hours of My Life" the main character is also Haruma Miura and its talking about a man, who is looking for a job after university but then something stops him from working and its the disease called "ALS" - His muscles will get weaker and he wont be able to breath either speak.

Thank you, come again!

Kachee Cha

All photos are photoshooted and edited by myself.

Yesterday I cried over my past, today I cried over my guitarlessons.

Thank you, come again!

- Kachee Cha

Hello!

How are you all doing? I wish i could say im doing good but im not.....

I started the day with getting a anxiety attack on my 2nd lesson. We were going to vaccinate 2 dogs, i was going to write the journal on the 2nd dog. I was so nervous and i started to shake, i could not breath....i even started to sweat 0.0 It also feelt like i was going to faint, like any second. But it got better after the lesson and we had lunch. The two last lessons we were going to work with old homeworks we had not done yet and stuff. I was working watching my favorite Youtuber Jimmie Star when i saw i had a comment. And someone told me that im a ugly pathetic jerk ;-; That comment hurt me so badly beacues of my anxiety that i was about to cry but i didn´t. So that comment has been with me the whole day. I know i should not think about stuff like that the whole time but it´s hard when your anxiety keeps on reminding you about that.....

So my anxety whent from a 7 to a 10. I hate to feel like this but it´s so hard to be happy. Everyone thinks im happy and smiling but.... It´s getting harder and harder each day to smile and laugh. I just wanna cry but i cant, i have no tears left. Im so sad and down that i dont even know where to go

, but there is one thing that makes me happy. And makes me wanna stay, and it´s my beautiful, amazingly girlfriend Kätlin <3 If you are reading this babe, i just want to say....thanks for being here for me. I love you!   

//Jon-chan